Unknown Author

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven,
and though it must appear
A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit,
your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother,
as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought,
every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card,
from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too,
no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands,
but oh the tears she's cried.
I thought that if I wrote you,
that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now,
I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me;
we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now,
would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart,
her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me,
sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden,
there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents,
trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark,
though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way,
to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored,
and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark,
I know you'll do your best
I have done all I can do;
to you I'll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her,
how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself,
when she joins me in eternity. ♥ ♥

Westlife - I'll See You Again [Where We Are Tour DVD] HQ

Mariah Carey & Boyz II Men - One Sweet Day (Live Daydream World Tour) **...

Heaven Got Another Angel - Original Song (Gordon True)

Mariah Carey -Never Forget You with lyrics

Heavy Heart

Tonight my heart is heavy as the very last night I spent with you runs through my mind. I miss those days where I got to hold you and play with you. Putting you to bed for the last time is a constant reminder of how precious life really is to me. I realized the other day I stopped putting the sign of the cross and saying "angels watch over you" on all your siblings foreheads since the day you died. I happened to go to do it to Joshua out of my old habit and realized how long it had been since I did it and it just made memories flood my mind of that night when I did that to you and how angry I am that God stole you in the night. I know deep down that really isn't the case but at times that is how it seems. I will never forget the music that played in the room that night and how you looked up at me with that sad little look that I was putting you to bed but then you just put your head down. I realized I had forgotten to bless you and went back to make sure I did it. It was the last time I would do that while you were alive. My heart just aches and is so very heavy with the memories of that night...they are so precious to me and yet bring back such pain and hurt. I just hate it all...this isn't fair that anyone should hurt like this...I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy and would give anything to have you back and for the pain to be gone. I try every single day to keep it together and am really working hard on learning how to live again but it is so hard and so exhausting. Everyone wants me to move on and I know I have to but it isn't easy and just hurts so bad. Even when tears don't fill my eyes they fill my heart and my heart just cries out in such agony over our loss of you. I hear about this little girl who I know is your age and being mistreated and it just hurts so bad and every part of me just wants to take her and love her like we would have loved you if you were here but we can't and it isn't our place but just hearing about it tears me apart inside...it isn't fair that you were so loved and are gone and yet this child suffers...I will never understand God's logic and if anything ever makes you question God, these are the things that do. Know that I love you with all my heart and I think of you all the time even when I don't show it to the rest of the world, my heart knows and feels your presence even if you aren't here you will always be in my heart.

In Black and White

It amazes me how something so simple as a name on a plaque can make your world turn upside down all over again. Not only were we adults hit hard by this, but our kids were and made it so much worse. We had to actually call for someone to come out to the house for counseling for the kids but glad it will finally put them to the top of waiting lists they have been on for months. For the first time the little boys realized how permanent that death is. They were able to finally understand the word buried and how death translated to all of that. When we told Josh we were going to see George's name he thought we were going to see him but was saddened when he found out he was in the dirt. He became a crying mess and even stayed home from school the next day. This all just SUCKS! I don't understand God's purpose to all this but have to trust in him. Please pray for us all.