My heart has just been so heavy lately. I don't know why it is that I miss you so much. Every single time I think I finally have it together something happens to just make me realize that this is forever and is unpredictable at best. Trying to explain the pain in my heart is just so very difficult since it is not like a cut or broken bone that will heal with time.
It is so hard for me to know you are going to be a big brother but you will have to do that from heaven and not here. We will have to be the ones to tell your little brother or sister all about you and how great you were and what you mean to us. This is just not the way that I pictured life for us all. Tears stream down my face at least once a day because I just don't know what to do or how to make the pain end. I know it will be the day I am with you again but that just seems so very far away.
There is always something that will just make me think of you and hit me out of no where. Today I was driving home from a stop at Costco after my doctors appt and the song Homesick came on the radio and I cried the whole way home listening to it. Directly after that was over, the song I just posted on here "Better than a Hallelujah" I really thought about the meaning of it and how ironic it was playing when it was. Those are the moments I know that God is with me and will see me through this.
George's Guardian's of Grace Projects
Stocking project is now in full force collecting donations. We have a list of the items we can use. You can also choose to sponsor a stocking in memory or honor of someone else. We will include a paragraph or two in the cards we place in the stockings to let the recipient know about the person that means so much to you. Our paypal account is posted on this page and ready to take donations. Email us for a list of items needed or with any questions or information you would like included on a sponsored stocking/donation.
Video Tributes/Celebration of Life Footage
Here is a link to a video tribute that was made by Richard's dad in memory of George. Get out your tissues!
We Finally have footage from the service up and running:
It is in 4 sections running about 17 mins each. If you were unable to attend, you can now see what you missed. We were so blessed to have everyone there with us in person and in spirit!