Big Day-143 days old

Tomorrow is a big day for us. Gabrielle will be the same age that George was when he died and Josh was when he had his seizure. It brings much anxiety with it! Gabby is on her monitor and Hugh and I are both on edge but trying not to really think of it too much. They were all 143 days old when they had their issues. I had told myself I wasn't going to count the days but I had to know. It will be a good and sad day all at the same time. How hard it is to think that Gabrielle will surpass her brother's age is just so overwhelming. I never really thought it would be a big milestone but it really is deep in my heart. It brings so many emotions with it. We will be spending the day with my family since my niece Mallory is going to be baptized tomorrow. Today he was on my mind quite a bit since we were at the park with the kids. He never got to go there and today I sat with the kids under a tree to get our picture taken with me and the kids only to just feel as if part of me was missing. I looked at the pictures and you could just see it in my eyes that I was missing him. After some thought I realized that he is always there even if he isn't really physically there because he was there in all our hearts. The kids always say how much they love and miss him and I know how much I do so he was there in our hearts even if he was not in the pictures. Every single part of me misses him every single day. Please pray for us and that there are no major events tomorrow with Gabrielle or any of the kids for that matter and that we can just enjoy the day as we celebrate my niece becoming a child of God.