Our Angel Mito Monkey: Part of Me is Missing

George's Guardian's of Grace Projects

Stocking project is now in full force collecting donations. We have a list of the items we can use. You can also choose to sponsor a stocking in memory or honor of someone else. We will include a paragraph or two in the cards we place in the stockings to let the recipient know about the person that means so much to you. Our paypal account is posted on this page and ready to take donations. Email us for a list of items needed or with any questions or information you would like included on a sponsored stocking/donation.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Part of Me is Missing

I just miss you so much right now. I think about how 5 months ago you were still alive. We were celebrating daddy's birthday. How is it that the next day we would forever be living in a nightmare? I remember when you were crying and daddy gave me a hard time for going in and getting you that night. In the back of my mind I told myself I didn't care because if I didn't go get you and something happened to you I would be so mad at myself for not picking you up one last time that night. God I never thought it would be the last time I would hold you alive and get to play with you, see your smile, and hear your laugh. We played and you curled up under my chin to just have your mommy time. God I miss that so much! I knew I had to put you to bed eventually but had I know it would be my last night with you I would have held you all night long. Instead, I had no idea and I still remember the last moment that I shut those doors. You pushed yourself up and looked up at me with that sad face, laid your head down and started to suck your thumb! I played your music and put the sign of the cross on your head and said "angels watch over you" and kissed you one last time. Right now those memories just make tears streem down my face. My heart hurts so bad because part of it is missing and will be forever. You were my kindred spirit and I miss that connection. The day you went to heaven part of me went with you. Please know I love you so much and wish I could have been there the moment you went to heaven. I'm so sorry I couldn't bring you back and save your life, I really tried my hardest. God just wanted you with him as much as I want you with me. I don't understand it but I have to accept it since I cannot change it. My heart is so heavy and I miss you in ways I cannot explain but I am putting my life and yours in my faith in God and his plan for us. I can't believe tomorrow morning you will have been gone for 5 months...it seems like yesterday that part of my soul left. I love you for all eternity my little monkey!

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Matthew 25:35

For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me something to drink; I was a stranger, and you invited Me in; 36naked, and you clothed Me; I was sick, and you visited Me; I was in prison, and you came to Me.’ 37“Then the righteous will answer Him, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, and feed You, or thirsty, and give You something to drink? 38‘And when did we see You a stranger, and invite You in, or naked, and clothe You? 39‘When did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’ 40“The King will answer and say to them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me.’ 41“Then He will also say to those on His left, ‘Depart from Me, accursed ones, into the eternal fire which has been prepared for the devil and his angels; 42for I was hungry, and you gave Me nothing to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me nothing to drink; 43I was a stranger, and you did not invite Me in; naked, and you did not clothe Me; sick, and in prison, and you did not visit Me.’ 44“Then they themselves also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, or thirsty, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not take care of You?’ 45“Then He will answer them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to Me.’ 46“These will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”

Obituary

George Charles Garman of Lumberton, born September 9, 2009, awoke in the Lord's loving arms on Friday, January 29, 2010. He was a beloved infant-son, brother, grandson, nephew, and light to all during his time on Earth, and his beautiful smile and infectious laugh continue to live on in the memories of all who knew him. The gifts he bestowed upon everyone he encountered are especially recalled fondly by his parents, Hugh and Nicole Garman (Arnao), brothers, Richard, Joshua, and Michael, grandparents, Michael and Barbara Arnao, and Alice and the late Frank Garman, and his great-grandparents Charles and Catherine Arnao and the late George and Frieda Miller. While the four short months he shared with his loved ones were made all too brief due to his fight with Mitochondrial Disease, his memory will live on forever. A celebration of George's life will be held on Saturday, February 13, 2010. Calling hours will be from 12:00-2:00 PM at St. Martin in the Fields Episcopal Church, 489 Main St., Lumberton, NJ 08048. A celebratory service will begin at 2 PM with a reception following. In lieu of flowers, the family welcomes donations made in George's name to The Joshua Garman Special Needs Trust c/o J. Robert Steelman 1117 Lambert Dr., Westhampton, NJ 08060. Condolences may be sent to www.koschekandporterfuneralhome.com