Is This Real?

So many times I sit here and trudge through the day trying to make the best of it. I have been working hard on the upcoming funraiser that the boys have wanted to do in George's memory. For the longest time I have been putting off work on the web page. I could not figure out why in the world it was just being put off over and over again. It was basically there but it just wasn't what I was looking for(I'm a perfectionist by nature)

Last night I finally sat down and bit the bullet to revamp the site. By the end of the night I was finally happy with the whole thing. If you get a chance or want to make a donation or find out more about events please visit it www.komfortforkidzcampaign.blogspot.com This afternoon I realized I needed to add a direct donation page to the web page for people who may want to just make a direct donation.

As I sat there adding the page, I realized that I didn't have the sound turned off. One of the songs that has always touched me was Remember Me. Every single time I hear it I cry and it was just fitting as I sat there working on this project. I sat there looking at his pictures on the page listening to the song and I just cried. At times I wonder if he was ever here and then other times I wonder if this is real and will I ever wake up. The emotions that come with the loss of a child are so random and extremely strong and a roller coaster from moment to moment. Every mom I know goes through the same things and you know they come but when they do many times you are just so completely unprepared. It was like looking at those pictures I remember the moments as if they were happening. I could feel him and smell his skin and his gentle touch...God how I miss them so much. You never know how much those things mean to you until you no longer have them.

On another note, I do have a prayer request. A friend of mine from high school is taking her son for a biopsy tomorrow. She is very nervous and scared on many levels. I know her worry all to well and the fears she carries with her. Nothing makes those moments easy when it is your child you watch suffer through something they just don't understand and you feel like you are the one who chose it for them. He is going in tomorrow early in the morning so please keep them in your prayers.