Our Angel Mito Monkey: I Miss You My Angel

George's Guardian's of Grace Projects

Stocking project is now in full force collecting donations. We have a list of the items we can use. You can also choose to sponsor a stocking in memory or honor of someone else. We will include a paragraph or two in the cards we place in the stockings to let the recipient know about the person that means so much to you. Our paypal account is posted on this page and ready to take donations. Email us for a list of items needed or with any questions or information you would like included on a sponsored stocking/donation.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I Miss You My Angel

My sweet baby boy, I miss you so much. There isn't a day that doesn't go by that doesn't seem impossible to make it through because the pain I hold in my heart is just so great. You are always in my mind and my heart. I don't know how they can say that it gets better with time because I find it to be the oppsite. Each day that goes by, I yearn to hold you more. I know that you are in the best place ever and it is selfish that I want you back but I do want you back more than anything. My arms are so empty without you in them. I miss your smile and laugh.

It hurts to watch your big brothers miss you. Tonight Michael wanted to send you a half eaten chicken nugget and put it in an envelope with a letter for you. We were out of the helium tank I had bought so he wanted to mail it to heaven. Joshua of course wanted to write his own letter, the big boy he is now, and although you could not read a thing, each scribble had meaning and was written with so much love! Richard is trying hard to find a way to get through his pain and he is having a tough time right now...please watch over him...he loves you so much and misses you too.

I try to get through the day and keep myself busy. Whenever I do that though, I feel like I am hit like a rock at the end of the day. I don't feel guilty for being happy and living but the pain just comes in and washes over me in a huge wave rather in the small trickles here and there throughout the day. It is so hard to live without you. I know God will see me through this but I don't know how to do this and still come out in one piece at the end. There are other mommies missing their angels too and I thank God that they are in my life because I know I am not alone and this is not abnormal. I would honestly think I was going crazy if I didn't know them. There is nothing that can ever prepare you for this sort of loss.

You meant the world to me and I miss everything about you. Life is not and will not ever be the same again. I know you are watching over us but I really wish you were here and I didn't have to know this life that I now live. Everything will just be forever incomplete until we are all together again. Sending you lots of hugs and kisses to you my sweet little monkey! I love you so much!

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Matthew 25:35

For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me something to drink; I was a stranger, and you invited Me in; 36naked, and you clothed Me; I was sick, and you visited Me; I was in prison, and you came to Me.’ 37“Then the righteous will answer Him, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, and feed You, or thirsty, and give You something to drink? 38‘And when did we see You a stranger, and invite You in, or naked, and clothe You? 39‘When did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’ 40“The King will answer and say to them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me.’ 41“Then He will also say to those on His left, ‘Depart from Me, accursed ones, into the eternal fire which has been prepared for the devil and his angels; 42for I was hungry, and you gave Me nothing to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me nothing to drink; 43I was a stranger, and you did not invite Me in; naked, and you did not clothe Me; sick, and in prison, and you did not visit Me.’ 44“Then they themselves also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, or thirsty, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not take care of You?’ 45“Then He will answer them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to Me.’ 46“These will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”

Obituary

George Charles Garman of Lumberton, born September 9, 2009, awoke in the Lord's loving arms on Friday, January 29, 2010. He was a beloved infant-son, brother, grandson, nephew, and light to all during his time on Earth, and his beautiful smile and infectious laugh continue to live on in the memories of all who knew him. The gifts he bestowed upon everyone he encountered are especially recalled fondly by his parents, Hugh and Nicole Garman (Arnao), brothers, Richard, Joshua, and Michael, grandparents, Michael and Barbara Arnao, and Alice and the late Frank Garman, and his great-grandparents Charles and Catherine Arnao and the late George and Frieda Miller. While the four short months he shared with his loved ones were made all too brief due to his fight with Mitochondrial Disease, his memory will live on forever. A celebration of George's life will be held on Saturday, February 13, 2010. Calling hours will be from 12:00-2:00 PM at St. Martin in the Fields Episcopal Church, 489 Main St., Lumberton, NJ 08048. A celebratory service will begin at 2 PM with a reception following. In lieu of flowers, the family welcomes donations made in George's name to The Joshua Garman Special Needs Trust c/o J. Robert Steelman 1117 Lambert Dr., Westhampton, NJ 08060. Condolences may be sent to www.koschekandporterfuneralhome.com