Written by Tammy Brown

One Year of Time

"Time heals all wounds"
this is what they keep saying

you have been gone
for just over a year now
the world has moved on
and expects me to have done the same

it cannot understand
that your death
has become an even greater weight to carry now

the shock has diminished
and all illusions of hope have gone
forcing reality down my unwelcoming throat

time has forced me to know it
and is forcing me still to accept it

time is not the forgiving friend
they would like to believe
but rather the harshest of teachers

and it has taught me well

it has taught me to place a foot forward
and force the other to follow
it has taught me to lift my head and pretend
as I hide behind a forged smile

all for their benefit
their comfort

time has taught me to pre-program my way through each day
until I can wrap myself in the memories of you each night
with comforting sobs of ease

yes
time has taught me well

however
it has done nothing
to ease the steady intensification of sorrow
that comes with the heaviness of reality
in this next year

Tammy Brown